My motor has been running a bit slow this past month - I believe that all power was diverted from nonessential functions (watching TV, sleeping, breathing, bitching, oh wait those last two are the same thing ha ha) in order to power the Tiki Generator. However, this morning I am feeling springy. Too much caffeine? The sassy little finger-snapping chill in the air when I woke up this morning, promising fall is on its way? A touch of the manic? Whatever the cause, I am refreshed, revived, abuzz with enthusiasm for old projects and awash in ideas for new ones.
I have always been like this: periods of torpor are followed by jolts of energy, like they started to make me bipolar but then forgot to add the necessary activating enzyme, so the effect is diluted by a billion. And although I got off lucky, it can be a bit annoying. The plug-awayers seem to have it easy in so many ways: so much follow-through, so much completist satisfaction, so linear and clean. Meanwhile, I flit about. There's no way to keep up with all the things I want to do: even if I remained in my perky state indefinitely, I couldn't keep up with the interests and ideas. But I like to think that this mode of functioning is necessary, and has its positive aspects. I like to tell myself that these periods of rest are important, that they provide a new vitality to half-completed tasks. And for those projects that don't make it into the next round of endeavor, well, maybe they weren't compelling enough to be worth my time. Maybe I am practicing a sort of creative Darwinism that will eventually result in the evolution of the Best Thing Ever. Maybe so. Who can say?
The theme for today is: Let's Get Started.
Posted by hilatron at August 28, 2003 10:53 AM | TrackBackI hope so.
We can evolve together, then. I'm just like this. It's crazily annoying sometimes.
Posted by: VASpider at August 30, 2003 04:43 AM